After the IVF

Something is definately going on with the hormonal balance in my body. I have been spotting up until a week ago...I assume it was anovulatory bleeding as it wasn't really heavy enough to be a "period." Then this week, I have been moody, horny, hungry, bitchy, achy, etc. My dh is going with the flow and enjoying all the extra sex time, and I have that niggling feeling that this is just false hope that my body could actually ovualte on its own. And perhaps even some sperm could find an egg to fertilize. I had 3 days of egg white cervical mucous, accompanied by the feeling that I was in heat. Maybe I am really a dog.

I know that I am too anxious to be getting pregnant now, but that would be wonderful. That would be 2 kids, and probably that would be it for me. But I know how God always laughs when I make plans. I am not sure if I am even that great of a mother. I love working outside the home and taking care of a child is harder work. 2 children, hard at first when they are little, but better I guess as they get older (I know, different problems). I do want #1 to have a sibling so she and he/she can be on the "kids" side vs. us parents. I know dh and I have the potential to be great parents and perhaps that it is why I often question why we don't have kids easily. Maybe I am just impatient and at least I have one.

My MIL was helping me out with babysitting the other day and I was rushing home from work to make sure all was ok. I got there and everyone was asleep. I am not sure who wore who out first. Every 1-2 feet in the house was a small baby toy or object. I just had to laugh.

Happy Easter everyone!

My pants have been getting tighter lately (also my undies too) and the numbers on the scale are higher that I like. I kept saying I really needed to watch what I was eating. My actions, however, hadn't caught up to my brain. Well, last week, I have double check my blood sugar machine and my own sugar was higher that my patient's who is a diabetic. Granted, they were both numbers in the normal range, but I was a bit taken aback. I also recently hospitalized a patient under 40 who is suffering the ravages of kidney disease from uncontrolled diabetes. Well, this past week, I have been scared into watching what I eat again, in particular a lower carb diet. As I was a gestational diabetic, PCOS, and have a diabetic dad who started with heart blockages at age 45, I am totally at risk for this disease. Exercising on a regular basis again would help too. Not just light walks but more getting sweaty workouts again. It also dawned on me that if I don't take care of myself I can't take care of my daughter or on down the road, she might have to take care of me. So, giving up doughnuts sounds pretty lame sometimes, but for me, obviously, it is not.