Monday, June 27, 2005
Home Sweet Home
Well, 34 weeks as of yesterday and I am still at home and the baby is still inside. So far, so good. The time has actually passed with only a few moments of boredom. Mostly it is just me being anxious at first for the baby not to come too soon and now I am back to being anxious about the baby coming in the next few weeks. I am to see my doctor in 2 days and get checked out.
Thank goodness for my DH, friends, internet, my 2 entertaining cats, books, HGTV, Food Network, to keep me occupied.
This is the longest break I have every had from school/ work in a very long time. I don't think I'd be very useful at work at this point anyway. My brain seems to be preoccupied with baby thoughts and I am increasingly absent-minded.
Thank goodness for my DH, friends, internet, my 2 entertaining cats, books, HGTV, Food Network, to keep me occupied.
This is the longest break I have every had from school/ work in a very long time. I don't think I'd be very useful at work at this point anyway. My brain seems to be preoccupied with baby thoughts and I am increasingly absent-minded.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Things beyond our knowledge
My dh and I have received, over the last 1 month 3 happy phone calls/ news from friends as such:
Couple #1 - told they would never conceive, both male and female factors, even IVF would be impossible. Had child #1 without ART after 9 years of marriage. Recently found out that they are pregnant with #2.
Couple #2 - female with Turner's Syndrome. IVF #1 = 1 healthy baby boy...miracle...2 years ago. Just found out they are pregnant (naturally) with #2.
Couple #3 - male factor, female factor and advanced maternal age. Tried IVF x 1, IUI x 3. On IVF #2, no eggs. Female ovulated on her own, IUI x 1 = pregnant!
It makes me think...we know a lot, but there are still things that can happen that are beyond our knowledge, only God knows!
Couple #1 - told they would never conceive, both male and female factors, even IVF would be impossible. Had child #1 without ART after 9 years of marriage. Recently found out that they are pregnant with #2.
Couple #2 - female with Turner's Syndrome. IVF #1 = 1 healthy baby boy...miracle...2 years ago. Just found out they are pregnant (naturally) with #2.
Couple #3 - male factor, female factor and advanced maternal age. Tried IVF x 1, IUI x 3. On IVF #2, no eggs. Female ovulated on her own, IUI x 1 = pregnant!
It makes me think...we know a lot, but there are still things that can happen that are beyond our knowledge, only God knows!
Friday, June 17, 2005
Sigh of relief
The ultrasound yesterday showed an abundance of fluid and a healthy baby girl. She is quite big already for 32 5/7 (approx 5 lbs 4oz) and moving quite vigourously. I am so relieved that the water leak is over. I am still under orders to stay at home and bedrest and stop working. I am sure I slept better last night knowing that everything was ok for now.
I was thinking about work and wondering if I am going to go nuts at home and thought about sneaking in some work. But the more I thought about it I knew in my heart I had to do what was best for the health of the baby and myself. I know it sounds selfish to even have to think about it, but I have been getting up everyday to go to work/ school the large majority of my life (I even did extra summer school for fun).
Everyone in my life has been very understanding and that really helps a lot. Thanks for all the blogger support to all my readers.
I was thinking about work and wondering if I am going to go nuts at home and thought about sneaking in some work. But the more I thought about it I knew in my heart I had to do what was best for the health of the baby and myself. I know it sounds selfish to even have to think about it, but I have been getting up everyday to go to work/ school the large majority of my life (I even did extra summer school for fun).
Everyone in my life has been very understanding and that really helps a lot. Thanks for all the blogger support to all my readers.
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Water, water
I was bedresting yesterday afternoon (taking a nap) and woke up to pee. I changed my panty liner and went to eat a snack. About 20 minutes later I felt wet. Wet underwear. Pee? I went to the bathroom and felt an urge to have a BM. My crotch was soaked with a clear, non-pee smelling liquid...like water...WATER!?!
I called my doc and he told me to come right away to his office to check it out. My dh came to fetch me and I was thinking...oh no, I'm going to be in preterm labor...hospital..too early!
I was examined and the paper was positive but the ferning test was negative. He let me go home and today I am going over there in a few minutes and also see Dr. High Risk for a sono. My doc thinks the outer bag leaked and the inner bag is likely still intact. I have been reclining/ bedresting and have had no more troubles. I hope he is right. The baby still looked fine yesterday and she has been moving as usual. I am having irregular contractions...tightening of the belly, but nothing major.
So I am in limboland, but so far still cooking.
I called my doc and he told me to come right away to his office to check it out. My dh came to fetch me and I was thinking...oh no, I'm going to be in preterm labor...hospital..too early!
I was examined and the paper was positive but the ferning test was negative. He let me go home and today I am going over there in a few minutes and also see Dr. High Risk for a sono. My doc thinks the outer bag leaked and the inner bag is likely still intact. I have been reclining/ bedresting and have had no more troubles. I hope he is right. The baby still looked fine yesterday and she has been moving as usual. I am having irregular contractions...tightening of the belly, but nothing major.
So I am in limboland, but so far still cooking.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Slow down
I have been feeling a bit worn out the last few days...but actually better since yesterday. I chalked it up to having houseguests and surviving my super humungous baby shower this past weekend. Also it has been very hot and humid in this usual arid, mild climate where I live. I was happy that my OB checkup was coming up this week. I was joking to myself that I hoped he would tell me to slow down (work, life, etc.), but that probably he would tell me that everything was fine and I worried too much.
Well I went this morning, and my prediction came true. I wasn't worrying too much. He checked and I have begun at 32 weeks 4 days to efface and dialate. So I am on orders to slow way down and spend a lot of time lying around. He is still letting me work a few 1/2 days a week, but I am to be horizontal as much as possible (pool time is allowed!).
The baby appears to be fine and I hope to let her cook a little longer before I meet her. Keep fingers crossed!
Well I went this morning, and my prediction came true. I wasn't worrying too much. He checked and I have begun at 32 weeks 4 days to efface and dialate. So I am on orders to slow way down and spend a lot of time lying around. He is still letting me work a few 1/2 days a week, but I am to be horizontal as much as possible (pool time is allowed!).
The baby appears to be fine and I hope to let her cook a little longer before I meet her. Keep fingers crossed!
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Elle Magazine
I was just commenting the other day to one of my girlfriends that since I have been married and now with child, my magazine interests have changed a bit. I used to look forward to devouring the latest fashion mags, Elle especially as it is one of the more intelligent ones out there. But lately I am finding Redbook and Good Housekeeping (?!) more interesting. Love fashion and dating topics, but marriage/ baby advice is more relevant to the current stage of my life.
Today, however, I got my Elle and there was a article about how some people were going the "natural" route treating infertility...expensive spas, Chinese medicine, and rebalancing with herbs, etc. and not going the Western medicine, "instant gratification" methods (articles words, not mine), IVF (I would hardly consider IVF as instant gratification), etc. Interesting reading, presented different views, etc., but I couldn't help thinking, even though a lot of it was "natural" it was still the same..."I'll try anything to get pregnant"... which is truly the point where many people dealing with infertility are/ were at (including myself). Also interesting many of the women in the article were over 40 and trying for the 1st time even many with obvious menopausal symptoms.
Denial? Hope? I don't know.
It also still reeks of the "it's your fault you can't get pregnant" crap. You have an imbalance because you are too career oriented, too short, too fat, too stressed, too non-herbal, too "whatever." We don't need anyone else, natural or not, telling women they are at fault because they don't get pregnant easily/ at all.
Today, however, I got my Elle and there was a article about how some people were going the "natural" route treating infertility...expensive spas, Chinese medicine, and rebalancing with herbs, etc. and not going the Western medicine, "instant gratification" methods (articles words, not mine), IVF (I would hardly consider IVF as instant gratification), etc. Interesting reading, presented different views, etc., but I couldn't help thinking, even though a lot of it was "natural" it was still the same..."I'll try anything to get pregnant"... which is truly the point where many people dealing with infertility are/ were at (including myself). Also interesting many of the women in the article were over 40 and trying for the 1st time even many with obvious menopausal symptoms.
Denial? Hope? I don't know.
It also still reeks of the "it's your fault you can't get pregnant" crap. You have an imbalance because you are too career oriented, too short, too fat, too stressed, too non-herbal, too "whatever." We don't need anyone else, natural or not, telling women they are at fault because they don't get pregnant easily/ at all.
Monday, June 06, 2005
The Pregnant Club
I have finally come to accept that I am a member of the Pregnant club. I wasn't sure I'd ever make it, but it is time to face the reality. It really hit me these past 2 weeks as I have been getting bigger and bigger as well as walking into the room full of pregnant women (and their spouses/ partners) at childbirth class. Why am I in here with all these fat bellied women? Oh yeah, I am one of those too. I know this may sound a bit weird coming from a woman who is now 31 weeks pregnant, but that is how strange the mind is.
